I am sitting here this evening thinking about my time on dialysis. My journey was great for the most part. Then I started thinking about the one thing that sends shivers down my spine. That thing for me is cannulation.
I would have extreme anxiety every time I cannulated myself. I even had buttonholes and dull needles. Anxiety was to the point where I was in therapy and on Xanax/Lexapro. (Now off all since my transplant).
I was so traumatized from the very first time I started dialysis and the Tech infiltrated my never used AV Fistula. The pain was something I had never experienced before. Between the physical pain and emotional toll. I was a mess. lnfiltrations happened once or twice during my HHD journey.
Even though I received many of the benefits from this therapy, like travel, energy, and less diet restrictions, cannulation is a huge deal. Bravo to those who do this everyday.
Just some of the ways dialysis has changed my life.
HHD from 2017-2019. Transplanted in November 2019.
| Sacramento, CA