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I feel like I wanna die because of my diabetes how do I stop thinking that 😢

type 1 diabetes
Tonypandy, GBR
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Jeddah, SAU
Yea me too. My struggle is mainly theoretical; what is the purpose to live more? I punch myself everyday with handful of needles just to be awake with low energy. If I stay hungry then I am hungry and if I eat I face a hyper and also I feel hungry. I am tired. This thing is unbearable. Please don't tell me stay strong, control it don't let it control you bla bla bla. I am done with this. Death is a good choice for me but I would feel sad for my family. Oh god my life is purposeless. By the way I read books, Lots of books. It does never matter. I can't believe living with no pancreas! I lost my pancreas and I got 0% refund.

type 1 diabetes
Bristol, VA
Praying! All hope is not lost.

type 1 diabetes
If those prayers dont do the trick —> definotely try gettinf some exercise , any type you like (even sex counts)... & find/use your support systems -but honestly- truth is: diabetes can be a complete & total fuckin shit show! Burnout is Very normal and common and your quality of of life can be good, great even... the thing that honestly made the biggest difference for me was getting into the DiY open source, Closed loop, “artificial pancreas” stuff. Specifically the Loop app.... look Into it- if you find it interesting, & decide you want to give it a shot! Omfg! I can guarantee you one thing.... You will cry 😭! Because finally there’s actually/finally a solution that multiplies your time & effort 10 to 1 for 1/10 (meaning youll get 10x the results for 10% the time/energy invested. Rather than constantly feeling like your losing at a game of catch-up... i hardly ever get “burtout” & worry or think about my likely shortened lifespan, &/or whatever aweful/painful/ exhausting shit id eventually inevitably run into ( or should i say wheel myself into).

type 1 diabetes
I Loop now- the algorithm takes on 95% of the daily mental/emotional/psychological burden & I honestly just let it do its thing. One of my first thoughts/realizations/ paradigm shifts occurred about 2 days after I started looping, when I suddenly realized that i was confused because it all seemed too easy or simple or something... I was sure i was missing something/ or forgetting something.... but what it actually was, was i was unburdened all pf a sudden, and my mind had gotten sooo used to always Spending that low level expenditure of energy (resulting in a constant low level of fatigue)

type 1 diabetes
I had actually Forgotten what it Felt like to Actually, truly, allow my mind and body to relax not partially. but Completely! It isn’t a cure, it Isnt simple or perfect or even easy. But it is the closest i had felt to feeling “normal” again (normal is a relative term, that exists only in the mind and Constantly fluctuates along an ever changing continuum) /:::: Needless to say: i felt realllly Good/ grateful/ free/ unchained(untethered)/ hopeful & exhilarated. Maybe knowing it’s possible will help, maybe experiencing it yourself will be a prayer answered. But- it certainly cant hurt to give it a shot...

type 1 diabetes
Bristol, VA
God never fails. I’m on a closed loop system as well and what a blessing it’s been for myself and this young man! 🙏🏻😁 If someone feels they can’t afford it there are financial programs that can help.

type 1 diabetes
Bristol, VA
How are you today Candice?

type 1 diabetes, Pre Dialysis, Peritoneal Dialysis, Home Hemodialysis
Unknown Location
A lot of great, positive feedback here - thank you to all. But Cadence hasn't replied and my bigger concern is her. Cadence, can you let us know you're ok?

type 1 diabetes, Pre Dialysis, Peritoneal Dialysis, Home Hemodialysis
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Lots of good ideas, but no one has asked you about you - would love to connect with you more and learn about you - what is hard for you, what you'd like help with, and also what you're passionate about - what makes you tick!

type 1 diabetes, Pre Dialysis, Peritoneal Dialysis, Home Hemodialysis
Unknown Location
I've had T1D for over 30 years and know how awful it can be. If you want to talk one on one send me an email - aet8243@gmail.com. I'm here for you.

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